A Lonely Vintage

 Hi! I am Aurora and I am 14. I think it is common that I call myself a teen. So before getting into details lemme copy myself to your hearts. ( please think what will you do if you ARE in my place)

So as I was saying I am a lame , nerdy student. Mmm what will you say! yes a nerdy, uncool student. Dont consider me as a bright student though I am only 3rd or 4th in my class. But teachers loved me. but it isnt teachers everyone needs but a friend and i didnt. I was a sensitive, emotional, and not a hero. (for sure!)

I always thought what will others think before I do something. Mmm make me a not a good cool friend. I always stared from the 3 storey building of our school to the ground and I will find many kids playing. There it is, I will lose everything and I will start crying. But I am not a person who express myself to others. I hope you wont be having a situation like that ,you dont know how hard it is to stop crying and show others they are happy. 

And now comes the twist I always believed that my parents were the reason for me being so uncool and loose all the friends. I still do. when we are all small our parents allows us to play and be happy. But my parents tried teaching me algebra. They always set a lot of rules around me. Dont touch that , dont do that , behave in front of others. My parents especially my father comes from a poor background but now he is a respected person in the society. But you know I have like 2 behaviours one is outside my house which contains a lot of formality and the other one contains which happens at the house: releasing a lot of rage in my family. I release all my sadness as rage on myself and my family. Till now I've won many prizes did many things 95% kids wont do. But they just pressurise me for more. I would have worked my ass off for them but believe me they havent said at least a congratulations to me. They always check that who is in front of me. My father always tell me the price of everything even the food we eat, to show that i am leaving at his mercy. If anything happened out of his order he askes if you wanna live here or outside. He will buy me anything to study and nothing for fun. and always tell me the things that I had and he didnt just to tell me I live a luxurious life. ( even when I dont have anything. The only thing I have is a football, a 1980s nokia phone )

My parents have a decent amount of salary a month but we have a lot of debts . Even though for the last 4 years I am asking them for a cycle. I believe that every child should have at least a single happy memory in their life and I think cycle can do that for me. yet I don't have a cycle. my ambition is to become an IFS officer . I promise you one thing when I wins that , I will personally buy cycles and will give them for free. 

I have many friends. but for them I am not, when teacher asks who is our best buddy everyone has an answer, but I just tenses. when I tells someones name I see their disgust in their face. 

THIS IS THE STARTING OF MY BLOG. PLEASE PARDON ME FOR ANY MISTAKES IVE MADE. IT IS MY TRUE LIFE STORY. AS I SAID I DONT HAVE A FRIEND TO HEAR MY WORST. SO I HOPE ATLEAST YOU WILL

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